That’s what my friend and co-worker Arun Batchu said to me earlier this week.
I’d said something clever that captured the essence of a problem we were facing, about the forces that produce the situations we find ourselves in, and what we need to do to get the outcomes we want, and he shook his head in wonder and told me I should write a book. It’s possible that it was a clever ruse to get me to stop talking, but I don’t think so.
So, I’m going to write more essays that capture my insights into the way things work, and how to do them better. Maybe that will turn into a book. Maybe it won’t. But either way, I’m going to do it.
Wish me luck.
This is it. The championship game. We don’t need to save anything for later, because there is no “later.”
We’re up against the Maplewood Express, the other 13-1 team in our league. We saw them in Game 4 and beat them 4-2. We’ve been keeping an eye on them all year, and going into the tournament, we figured we’d be facing either them or the Twins, who are the only team to beat us all year.
The Express and the Twins faced each other yesterday, after we beat the Cubs to make it to the championship game. The Express won that one 8-4, so we got the rematch they wanted. I wanted this one too; while it would have been nice to face the Twins and play our game, the long-standing rivalry with the Express is just too good to pass up.
It rained overnight and into the morning, pushing back game start times by 2 hours, so our original 2:30 start time turned into a 4:30 start time. All that rain made the field was a lot softer than yesterday, which is a good thing — it was really hard and dusty yesterday.
We won the coin toss, and elected to be the home team. We’re feeling good about this — we’re good in the field, and being the home team gives us “last ups” (we’ll have the last opportunity to score runs, in the bottom of the 7th inning).
We take the field, and Alex starts. He gives up a run, but we get out without too much damage, and put three on the board in the bottom of the 1st to take the lead.
Alex pitches a scoreless 2nd and 3rd, and we add another run to make it 4-1. The Express are starting to let doubt seep in, and their coach is telling them to keep their heads up and stay in the game.
They do, and we start making errors in the field. A ball to right field drops in front of Joey, who grabs it and starts to run it in instead of throwing, and the Express score two to make it 4-3.
They get another two on a ball to left that pops out of Justin’s glove, taking the lead 5-4. Then they add three more in the 6th inning on a walk, two hits and another ball to right that Joey can’t catch up to. We’re down 8-4 — the same score that the Express beat the Twins by yesterday — and go down scoreless in the bottom of the inning.
Top of the 7th; Luke pitches like a closer, mowing down the Express to put a zero on the board. We’re still down by 4, but we’re not done — we get the last at-bat. If we can score 4, we force another inning. If we score 5, we’re the champions. We have the middle of our order coming up.
Anthony strikes out to start the inning, but Sam hustles out a single, then steals second. Elijah walks, and we put on the double steal to put runners at second and third. Steven hits a ringing double to left, scoring two and putting the tying run at the plate in the form of Justin.
The Express coach runs onto the field and gathers his infielders to talk. Their 4-run lead is down to two, and they only have one out. The game is most definitely on the line.
Justin takes a ball, with Steven stealing third, then a called strike, then swings and misses one. 1-2. He hangs tough, fouling off two more pitches, before finally missing one to give the Express their second out.
We send Sean to the plate. Sean’s the smallest guy on our team, but he swings hard and he hustles. He rarely strikes out, but since he doesn’t hit for much power, we have him near the bottom of the lineup. In this case, though, we don’t need power – we need to get Steven in from third base, and we need another baserunner.
Sean fouls one off, then swings through a second pitch. He makes good contact with the third pitch, hitting a sharp line drive up the middle. Unfortunately for us, the Express pitcher makes a nice play, gloving the ball for the third out and the end of the game.
We line up and congratulate the Express on a game well played. We didn’t win, but we played well, and we made them work right up to the last out.
Final score: 8-6, Express win.
Tournament record: 2-1, 2nd place.
We took home two trophies: one for 2nd place in the tournament, and one for winning the regular season.
Thanks, Ironpigs, for letting me coach. It was an honor to be along for the ride. See you next year.
Sometimes, a game can turn on a single decision.
We won our first game, so we can do no worse than 4th place. We have our sights set a bit higher, though. We’d like to win it all.
To do that, we need to win today. The Roseville Cubs, of course, think they should win. We played them before, and they played hard, so we’re expecting a good game.
Craig and I got a chance to catch up with the Cubs coach before the game. They had a fairly easy game in the first round, beating the Little Canada Blue Jays by 10 runs or so, but they’re expecting today to be hard.
We lose the coin toss, and the Cubs elect to be the home team. This is a good strategic call; it means that they will bat last. I think it’s also the call that lost them the game.
We score three runs in the top of the first. Alex starts and gives up a run, but we get three outs without much trouble.
In the second, we score three more run, and Alex pitches a scoreless inning.
In the third, we score another three runs, and Alex gives up his second run of the game.
Somewhere in the second inning, or maybe the third, the Cubs lost. They knew coming in that we’d beaten them before, and we were scoring runs in every inning and they weren’t. We were playing our game, and they weren’t playing theirs.
They shut us down in the 4th inning, finally getting a 1-2-3 inning by striking out our 9-10-11 hitters, but the mental damage was done. We added four more runs in the 5th to make it 13-2, and two more in the 7th to make it 15-2, and although the Cubs managed to get two runs in the bottom of the 7th, there was never any doubt about the outcome.
I think it came down to that initial decision; almost every time, being the home team is the right move. This time, it gave us the chance to score runs and rattle the Cubs, and we capitalized on that by playing excellent defense and scoring more runs to keep them off-balance. They never got a chance to start playing their game. Which is good, because we’d seen that before, and they could have beaten us.
They didn’t, though.
Final score: 15-4 Ironpigs.
Tournament record: 2-0. We’re going to the championship game.
It’s playoff time. We’re in the upper bracket, called the American League. We’re the #1 seed, since we finished in first place.
This means we’re playing the #8 seed, the Oakdale Red Sox. We played these guys in the regular season, and while we got in trouble early, we came back and won it 20-5.
If we win tonight, we’re playing Saturday afternoon, and can do no worse than 4th place overall. If we lose, we’re playing on Saturday morning at 8:45 am. Nobody wants that.
We win the coin toss, and choose to be the home team, so we take the field. Alex cruises through the first inning, with a comebacker to the mound that he throws to Lucas at first for the first out, a soft liner to the shortstop and a strikeout. He threw just 4 pitches to the first two batters, and eight total in the inning. In the bottom of the inning, Luke walks, then steals second and third with Alex batting. Alex walks and Luke steals home on the passed ball. Alex then steals second and third with Marco batting. Marco strikes out, but Lucas hits a single to score Alex. That’s all we manage, though, as the Red Sox starter, the same big lefty we saw before, gets Anthony and Elijah to strike out, mixing in a harmless walk to Sam.
2-0 Ironpigs. We’re in business.
The second inning does not go according to plan at all. Alex gives up a single to the first batter, who steals second and third, then tags up and scores on a fly ball. Another single puts a runner aboard, who makes it all the way around, scoring on an errant throw to third. A walk puts a third runnner aboard, who steals his way to third, then scores when we botch a rundown – we had the runner picked off third, but threw the ball away and gave up the run. Alex settles down and gets the third out with a strikeout, but the damage is done – we’ve given up 3 runs and we’re losing.
In the bottom of the second, we have our first baserunning adventure – Steven leads off with a big fly ball to deep center, but he overruns second base and is tagged out. Justin and Joey go down swinging, and we’re going to the third, trailing by a run.
3-2 Red Sox. This could be trouble.
Alex is mad now, and he gets the first two batters in the top of 3 to strike out, then gets a roller to third for an easy 5-3 play to end the inning and keep the Sox from adding to their lead. Joey leads off the bottom of the inning for us and strikes out, but Luke gets a single, Alex walks, Marco hits a double, Lucas walks (with Marco scoring on yet another passed ball), Anthony walks (with Lucas scoring on, you guessed it, another passed ball), and the Red Sox finally pull their starter and put in another pitcher. He gets Sam to fly out and Elijah to strike out, but we’ve scored 4 runs to take back the lead. This is Ironpigs baseball.
6-3 Ironpigs. We’re back.
Marco comes in to pitch the 4th inning, and gives up a single to the leadoff hitter, who makes it around to score as Marco is retiring the next three batters. In the bottom of the 4th, our 8-9-10-11 hitters come up to bat and keep the pressure on. Single from Steven, single from Justin, single from Sean to load the bases. Joey hits a sharp ball up the middle for a fielder’s choice that scores two, then he steals second and third, and we get our second baserunning adventure – Luke hits a ball to deep right field that the right fielder makes a great catch on. Joey took off when the ball was in the air, and didn’t hear me yelling “back back back!”, so he’s at home plate by the time the ball is caught. The Sox fielder follows up his great catch with a great throw, and the relay beats Joey back to third base, so he’s out. If he’d tagged up, he’d have scored easily from third and we’d still be batting, but instead, it’s a double play – 9-4-5.
The 5th inning is back on plan; Marco strikes out the side, making it look easy. Alex leads off with his third walk of the game, Marco hits his second double, then takes third and scores on yet another passed ball. Lucas strikes out – the first time I can recall him doing that in weeks, Anthony hits into a 5-3 fielding play, Sam walks, Elijah strikes out to end the inning. Two more runs for us.
The 6th inning is all about Luke. He’s in full-on closer mode, retiring the Red Sox 9-10-11 hitters with three neat strikeouts. The bottom of the 6th has our third wacky baserunning adventure. After Steven strikes out to end the inning, Justin hits a single, then steals his way to third. Sean strikes out, but the catcher drops the ball, so we’re yelling at Sean to run to first. He does, and the catcher throws to get him, and Justin steals home. Except he misses home plate, and as soon as the next batter steps in, the Red Sox protest and the umpire calls Justin out. Inning over.
We’re still leading by 6 runs, but the top of the Red Sox order is coming up, and there is no limit to scoring in the 7th inning. Not to worry, though, because Luke is still in closer mode. He strikes out the leadoff hitter, gets a great play by Sam on a fly ball to deep center for the second out, and gets the last out of the game on a 1-4-3 play, with the ball hitting off his glove and a nice catch by Anthony at second to Lucas at first.
Final score: 10-4 Ironpigs.
Tournament record: 1-0. We get to sleep in on Saturday.
Playoff standings are set – we were in first place last Friday, so we’re the #1 seed – but we still have a game left to play. And as it turns out, this one matters too.
We’re tied with the Maplewood Express, our long-term rivals, but since we beat them, we win the tiebreaker. But both of us have one game to play, and they’re facing the Oakdale Knights, who are 1-11. We figure they’re going to win. We, on the other hand, are up against the Little Canada Blue Jays, coached by Mike Murphy. They’re 11-2, in 3rd place. If we lose and the Express win, they’ll be in first place and we’ll be in third (since we’d be 12-2, tied with the Jays, who would have beaten us). Standings math is fun!
We’d prefer for that not to happen; there could be a trophy in it for us, and that would be a nice capper for a great season.
We have 11 guys tonight, and the Jays, who normally have 16, only have 9. This could be a good sign, or a bad one, depending on which 9 guys they have. Their coaches tell us they have 4 of their 6 pitchers, which could be trouble.
I didn’t get a shot of the scorebook, so I’m going from memory. Bear with me.
We’re visiting, so we start off at the plate. We score 3 runs, sending 8 batters to the plate. Alex starts and gives up a hit but keeps the Jays off the board.
In the second, our #9 batter, Sean, strikes out, then Joey walks, Justin gets a hit and the top of our order is up with 1 out and runners on 1st and 2nd. One pitch later, they’re on 2nd and 3rd, and two pitches after that, we’ve scored a run. We score 6 more, finishing with a monster 3-run homer to left by Sam. 7 runs is the limit, so we take the field. Alex pitches another scoreless inning.
The Jays keep us off the board in the 3rd inning, and manage to get another runner aboard in the bottom of the inning, but Alex gets the last two batters on strikeouts to end the inning with the runner stranded at third.
We add two more runs in the 4th. Marco comes in to pitch and retires the side 1-2-3.
In the 5th, we get a couple of runners aboard but can’t get them across the plate. The Jays finally break through, getting a run across the plate on a fielder’s choice in the bottom of the inning.
We add two more in the 6th. Marco stays in to pitch, and puts another zero on the board for the Jays.
We go down scoreless in the 7th. Luke comes in to close, and gets two quick outs before giving up a couple of sharp singles, a walk and a double to score 3 runs. He finally takes matters into his own hands, getting a strikeout to end the game.
A fitting end to a heck of a season. And we took matters into our own hands – we’re in control of our destiny.
Final score: Ironpigs 14, Blue Jays 4.
Season record: 13-1. First place.
This is the third game this week, and we’re playing short-handed. With three guys on vacation, we have just 9 guys. Except tonight, we’re missing Aaron, so we’re playing with 8.
This is legal; MAA rules allow us to play a game with 8 – we can even start with just 7 guys on the field, as long as we get up to 8 guys before the end of the game. Since we have 8 already, we’re good. So are the Orioles, who muster up 9 guys in time for the game to start.
We were originally supposed to play the Os back at the beginning of the season, but postponed the game due to a band concert. Their season has been pretty much the opposite of ours – another team of younger guys, they’re having problems putting together hitting and pitching in the same game, resulting in a 1-9 record.
So we’re facing a team that we should be able to beat, but we’re playing short-handed, and this one matters – the standings as of Friday (tomorrow as we play this game) will determine playoff seeding. We’re in first place ahead of the Express, but a loss would put us behind them in percentage. We don’t want that.
So we send Alex to the mound in the first. He walks the first batter, then gets a strikeout before giving up a single. We manage to hold the runners, and Alex gets another strikeout, and then a popup to short. In the bottom of the inning, we also send 5 guys to the plate, but some aggressive baserunning gets us two runs and a 2-0 lead.
Alex settles down in the second, retiring the Os 1-2-3 with a grounder to short (6-3) and two strikeouts. We bat around, sending 8 guys to the plate and scoring 4 runs.
The third inning sees the Os score a run on a two-out, nobody-on ball to the left field corner – with only 8 guys, we have a left-center fielder and a right-center fielder, and a well-hit ball that rolls all the way to the fence is a home run. It would have been a triple even with three fielders – it was a well-hit ball. Alex gives up a walk and a single before getting a ball to first base that Lucas handles for the third out. We come back big in the bottom of the inning. Sam hits a leadoff triple, Elijah follows up with a double, then Justin gets a triple. Luke walks, Alex gets a single, Marco hits a triple, Lucas walks, Anthony strikes out and Sam gets his second hit of the inning, a single, to plate the 7th run and end the inning.
Marco comes in to pitch a scoreless 4th, giving up a harmless walk while getting three strikeouts. We score 4 more runs in the bottom of the inning, although we’ve shut down the running game; the guys are not even advancing on passed balls, only on hits.
The 5th doesn’t go any better for the Os; they get a runner aboard with a walk, but he’s erased with a 6-4-3 double play to end the inning. We score another 5 runs in the bottom of the inning. Sam leads off for the third time in this game, and gets his third extra-base hit (a double), and the inning ends with Anthony almost stretching a dropped third strike into a home run. The catcher overthrew first, so Craig and I were yelling at Anthony to keep going, and the Orioles finally managed to get the ball in the same place as the baserunner when he reached home plate.
This was the play I’d been trying to get on Wednesday night; a play at the plate resulting in an out. I know it’s odd to be sending your own guys into plays and hoping they’ll make outs, but we were leading by 20 runs at this point. I wanted the Os to have something to be excited about, and getting the runner at the plate is exciting. On Wednesday night, I sent a runner from third on a ball into short left field, expecting the throw to the plate and an out. Instead, the left fielder hung onto the ball, and I looked like a jerk for running up the score. Not tonight, though – the Orioles made the play for the third out.
Luke came in to pitch the sixth inning. Strikeout, strikeout, triple to left, strikeout. Since there was no time to play another inning, there was no point in us batting again, so the ump called the game.
Final score: Ironpigs 22, Orioles 1
Season record: 12-1, still in first place – and no way for anyone to displace us. Second best record is the Express at 11-1, and we beat them. Third best is the Twins, who beat us, but they’re 9-1.
First seed, here we come. We have one game left, and then it’s tournament time.
After a week off, we have three games this week, all with just 9 guys – the normal Monday and Wednesday games, and a makeup game from earlier in the season on Thursday.
For the Wednesday game, we faced the Little Canada Dodgers. They’re fielding 15 guys, which is really tough on the coaches. MAA rules say that all players must play at least half of the innings in the game, and everyone bats. In turn, that means that everyone is getting less time in the field and fewer at-bats, and that means that they’re not building the skills they need to be successful. The Dodgers also have a lot of 6th graders, which means they’re physically smaller and have a year less baseball experience. All in all, it’s not surprising that they’re 3-8. I expect them to to better next year – we certainly improved since last year.
We still can’t count on winning, though. We need to stay in this game and play our best. Since Alex, Marco and Luke pitched on Monday and we have another game Thursday, Craig decides to go with Lucas and Aaron tonight – they could use the innings, and we can always bring in the big guns if we need to.
First inning: The Dodgers score one on a pair of singles and an error. We come back with 5, sending 9 guys to the plate.
Second inning: Lucas shuts down the Dodgers, 1-3, K, 5-3. We’re back at the top of our lineup (since we only have 9 guys), and send 8 to the plate, scoring 3.
Third inning: Lucas gives up a harmless walk while getting three outs. Justin, our #9 batter, leads off with a single and scores, and finishes the inning 9 batters later with a single that scores the 7th run of the inning.
Fourth inning: Aaron comes in and mows down the Dodgers: K, 1U, 4U. Back at the top of our lineup for the 4th time, we add another 3 runs.
Fifth inning: The Dodgers start their second trip through their 15-man lineup. Aaron gets an out, then we make an error and he gives up a single to score a run, then a walk that puts another runner aboard. A strikeout, another single that scores the second run of the inning and then a 4U play to finish the inning – and the game, because it’s 8:10 and there’s no point in us batting any more.
I would be remiss if I left out the highlight play of the game, which involved me. I coach 3rd base, which is known as the “hot corner” because batters who pull the ball are usually hitting it very hard. This means that a number of hard-hit balls come my way. Usually, they’re in fair territory, where I am not standing. Sometimes they are in foul territory, and sometimes they are hit right at me. Marco in particular, because he swings very hard, tends to pull the ball, and on Wednesday night, he hit a screaming line drive foul, directly at me.
Right at groin level.
I don’t wear a glove, so I can’t catch the ball. And I’m not sure that I could have – it was hit very very hard. I didn’t have time to get out of the way, just enough time to start to react by jumping backwards. The ball hit me square on, and everyone stared, expecting me to fall down and pass out.
I am the luckiest guy on earth because it hit me:
- an inch above the area that would have sent me to the emergency room
- on four layers of fabric (shirt, undershirt, pants, underwear) and a plastic belt buckle
- when I was moving backward
It hit me below the belly, above the groin, and while it smarted a bit, it did not hurt. I don’t bruise much at all – I haven’t had one in years – so it didn’t even leave a mark. I do have a bit of a bone bruise on the top of my pelvis in the front, but no ill effects. Everyone was staring at me, so I gave thumbs-up, picked up the ball and threw it to the pitcher.
Final score: Ironpigs 18, Dodgers 3
Season record: 11-1, still in first place
After losing our first game of the season, we needed to get back into a hitting frame of mind. We’ve been doing a lot of swinging and missing at the plate, which has been hurting us.
We had a long time to think about that. Craig calls the 4th of July week the All-Star Break, because we don’t have any games. We did have two practices, but we needed to get back in the saddle.
For our first game back, we faced the Roseville Nationals. They’re another team of 6th graders, with a 1-7 record. Their lone win came against the Roseville Knights, who are also 1-8. It’s tempting to regard these games as predictable easy wins, but that’s dangerous. On any given day, any team can beat any other team, and overconfidence can get us into real trouble.
As the visitors, we hit first. Luke grounded into a 6-3 play, Alex hit a double, stole third and scored on a single by Marco, Lucas walked, Anthony struck out and Aaron hit into another 6-3 play. In the bottom of the first, we sent Alex to the mound. He gave up a walk to the leadoff batter, who stole second, stole third and scored on a passed ball. Alex gave up a hit, then got the second out on a strikeout, and the third by picking the runner off 3rd base.
After one inning, we’re tied 1-1. This could be interesting.
In the second, we sent 9 men to the plate and scored 7 runs to trigger the 7-run rule, ending the inning with only one out. Alex gave up another walk that came around and scored a run in the bottom of the inning to make it 8-2.
In the third, we sent 11 guys to the plate, mixing singles and walks, including Justin’s first hit of the year, and scored 6 runs. In the bottom of the inning, Alex settled down and got his first 1-2-3 inning, striking out all three batters.
We’re now leading 14-2, and it’s time for us to shut down our running game. MAA is an instructional league, and part of what we’re teaching is good sportsmanship. That means not running up the score when the game is already lopsided. We tell the guys to stop stealing, but that they can advance on passed balls. It doesn’t help much.
In the fourth, we sent 12 guys to the plate, scoring 7 runs. We got three walks, had three batters reach on fielding errors and got back-to-back triples from Luke P. and Alex. The inning ended with the Nationals having managed just 2 outs. Marco pitched the bottom of the inning and got two quick strikeouts, then gave up a single and a walk before getting the third out on a great catch of a foul fly by Sam in left field.
In the fifth inning, the Nationals finally got us off the field without a run scoring. In the bottom of the inning, they manage to get a run on a pair of walks and some aggressive baserunning.
The top of the sixth was another seven-run debacle – five walks, an error and a single. In the bottom of the inning, Luke P. comes in to pitch and faces just three batters – strikeout, roller to first, strikeout.
We scored 28 runs because we hit the 7-run limit three times, and we gave up just two hits, four walks and no errors.
Final score: 28-3 Ironpigs.
Season record: 10-1. We’re still in first place.
Winning streaks are harder than they seem. We’re 9 games into the season, and while we’ve had a couple of close calls, we haven’t lost a game yet. At some point, winning starts to seem inevitable. When that happens, you get in trouble.
For game 10, we faced the Oakdale Twins. Sporting a 7-1 record, they’re in 3rd place. They got shut out in the first game of the season, but since then, they’ve only scored as few as 8 runs once. They don’t give up many runs, either. At game time, it was a sweltering 92 degrees, with no clouds and no wind. I brought a cooler full of ice and water, and Christina threw in a couple of dozen hand towels, so we could cool off.
We’re the home team, so we take the field. Alex is pitching, and the second pitch he throws sails high and slams the ump in the chest. The ump’s wearing a chest protector, but even with padding, getting hit by a fastball at 60mph is painful. The ump decides to take a few steps back and call the game from near the backstop. As we discover over the next few innings, this is disastrous for our pitchers. Alex in particular relies on being able to throw fastballs low for strikes, and throwing his curveball inside and having it break into the strike zone. With the ump 15 feet behind the plate, he can’t see the strike zone, so he’s judging the pitches based on where they are about halfway to the plate. At one point, a pitch thrown by one of the Twins pitchers bounces in the dirt two feet in front of the plate, but the ump calls it a strike.
It’s maddening, but we can’t do much about it. One of the aspects of playing at this level is that players and coaches are subject to a code of conduct – we need to behave like good sportsmen, and that means not criticizing the umpire. Even when he’s calling strikes on balls in the dirt.
Alex walked the first batter, then struck out the next two, and managed to strike out three Twins in the first, but then gave up two runs on three straight singles before getting another strikeout. We got three back in the bottom of the inning on singles, stealing and passed balls, but that was pretty much it.
With any kind of breaking ball getting called a ball, our guys need to throw straight fastballs over the plate. And as mentioned, the Twins can hit. Their coach told me mid-game that this was the best they’d hit all year. I think part of that may have been that they were getting a steady diet of fastballs over the plate. They scored two in the first, two more in the second, two more in the third, three in the fourth, three in the fifth and four in the sixth. Ouch. We managed just seven strikeouts, our lowest total of the year.
The biggest problem, though, was that we just didn’t hit. We got one more run in the fourth, but that was it. We struck out 12 times – a season high – and got just two walks.
Final score: 16-4 Twins.
Season record: 9-1. The streak is over. But we’re still in first place.
More baseball soon, I promise. I have two games to blog, but I didn’t have photos of the scorebook. Lame excuse, you say? Hey, it’s my blog. Suck it up.
At any rate, an update on my own health. I’m finally dealing with my neck and back problems, and I had a consultation with a nurse practitioner, who recommended an MRI, since it had been 18 months since the previous one. I got that done last week, and this morning had the followup discussion with Mark, the nurse practitioner. The upshot is that I have problems in two areas. C4-5 is the original herniation, which is still there and flattening my spinal cord. Yay. This is probably the source of my recurring pain on the left side. The new thing is that I have “severe disc degeneration” at C5-6. This is affecting my right side more than the left, and starting to cause shooting pains in my right arm. Yay.
The narrowing is really obvious on the MRI. In a normal spine (and in the parts of mine that are normal) there is a buffer of cerebrospinal fluid around the spinal cord, about the same thickness as the cord itself. In the C4-5 and C5-6 areas of my own spine, though, this buffer goes down to nothing, and the bones of my spine are actually squishing the spinal cord. This is what’s causing the pain.
In the long term, this pressure will increase, as I get older and my spine continues to deteriorate, and it will (eventually, hopefully not soon) cause pain, numbness, tingling, and increase my risk of spinal cord injury in the case of say a traffic accident. My sister Deborah went through something very like this, and Michael struggled with arthritic changes in his lower back – and, of course, Mom has had back problems since forever. I guess I just need to fit in.
Right now, this is treatable (we hope) with steroid injections. In the long term, I’m probably going to need surgery to relieve the pressure. For now, that’s in the future, but I am planning on getting an MRI every two years to monitor the progress.
Some part of me thinks I should be freaked out by this. But I’m not.
I guess I don’t have enough energy left to worry about this. It’s not cancer; what do I have to bitch about?